The big What!

A brand new year, a brand new beginning and fresh new start in my journey of adulthood.When you are young, you just can't want to grow up but when you are all grown up you just wish time can go back to before where not much worries and decision has to be make!

Is about time for me to get a job in my field but I don't seem to have that confident to develop software while working in pressure for companies where alot of money are involve......

Everyone around me think all this is just a piece of cake...is Not! Try walking in my shoes for a day and you will know! All this time my mom though I have an easy life, living oversea is such great thing and this and that... after 1week of living my life she finally know! living on your own is not easy especially when you are overseas and most of all on your own ....

Try to balance work,studies and social life (my bad just work and studies!) because I barely social anymore unless someone drag and force me out ...maybe is because the warm weather that just pissed people off, or public transport getting way more expensive (cost me freaking 14 dollars to go out once to hang with friends in the city)  and there is nothing much in melbourne to do besides the usual and I am bored of the usual... just not thrilling enough!

So back to the big what! I still yet to decide on what I really want to do once I finish everything here... Not sure going to US is a good move :( Life is hard can't they just come with maps? Well I am hoping to go see this Psychic somewhere next week because one of my friend made me to go with him to try it out which I don't really buy this crap but well no harm to try and get a reading about my future! Atleast maybe can clear the fog for my future leading me to a correct direction... maybe how knows I am meant to be back in Malaysia?(But if I ever get back Johor, I am finding my own place and I am going to take two of my dogs to live with me:) )